THIS IS ME

i still cant believe how hard it is to let go of his lies because i thought there were the truth so i held on to his words but there were lies. look into my eyes and you can see the mark he left. his name used to bring a smile now it brings tears. i still love him more then anything but i just cant sit around and wait for him to grow up. so what do i do? leave? but i dont think i am that strong. stay? but i dont think i am that strong. so i am not strong enough for his love i guess. i wish i could be that girl who he looks into her eyes and say “i love you” and means it! but that my fantasy and i have to start realizing that it is just a fantasy. i cant get him off my mind. he has me, but dont realize it. i miss that night that i spent with him, the softness of him lips and the way he walks into a room can make everyone smile. i never realize how wonderful this boy is on the outside, but on the inside he is just a teenager boy who has ___ on his mind 24/7 and he dont care if he hurts someone. but after all them problems he is simply amazing and i can see through all that and i know that he can change but the real question is when will he? and i do truely think that i am falling for him. and that is scary but at the same time i am happy because he makes me happy. but i am also a teenage girl i will have lots of CRUSHS!!!!!!!! but this one is the hardest to deal with